Where m i..?

Hmm..im in kl now..aunty's house..sitting in d living room..everyone slept dy except me..I started to think..y m i studying actually?Y?Suddenly one of my fren sign in msn..I chat vf him..He ask me some questions..n then i tell him tat i go there to study,nt to start a relationship..hmm..n tat makes me think bck again..i told tis to few guys b4..Actually..i hurt them alot..its like giving them hope..then BANG!Hope is gone..Mayb some of the ppl will think tat i like to play guys feeling by making them fall in love in me,then reject them..bt..i reli wan to say i didnt play..its nt fun seeing ppl sad bcuz of me..i feel guilty,sad n sometimes hurt..Ometimes i reli wan to cry..sometimes tears come down without a reason..Sometimes im reli tired..The kind of feeling..haiz..i dnt knw how to say..Sometimes i feel lost..reli lost..dnt knw wat im doin..dnt knw y im here..i reli feel like ending up ny life..bt i thank God tat He bring alot angels in my life..helping me n support me..Thank God 4 His love..

Altho sometimes i will think,y cant i get things tat i wan??y muz i go thru all this??bt well..i guess this is life..Human will face alot of challenges..bt i belive in one thing..To all hu r reading this..Do remember..Altho life is nt easy,bt,if u dnt give up,it will lead u to success..Also..If God is vf us,nth can come against us..



"Oh Lord..
I need your strenght
I need ur love..
Please fill me again..
I dnt know y sometimes i cant feel Your presence..
Bt i believe tat u are always there..
Lord..Please hold me up again..
Im very tired..
Please forgive me for my sins..
I need You Lord..
All along
You were beside me..
Even when i couldnt tell..
Thank You Father..
Thank you lord.."



~angie~

Nothing to do..lame..hehe

Today stay at school frm 12.30 till 6pm leh!Wait 4 6pm class..lol..me n saki nth to do..juz can go to study room n slip..lol..so lame..then i took some pic to entertain myself..lol

Juz finish drink milo..lol..1 is saki geh..1 is mine..

Took in cafeteria..hehe

Tis one took at study room..hehe*two pic above oso took frm here..hehe

lol..no le..hmm..tmr go aerobic room dance again..hehe..then go dance club..k la..wan rest early lu..

~angie~

dancing is my life!lol~

Today went to aerobic room..haha..practice dance vf some of my frens..hmm..today kinda special..gt two instructors.lol..one is d sot sot dei geh Mr.Lee Mun Hon,*my sifu..haha..another is ME!hehe..I taught Saki n Coco the dance i learned frm my sifu's sifu,YOUTUBE!..haha..The song "lipgloss" by Lil mama..This song is crazy!So fast!I learned it 4 few hours oni..then teach them..Haha..bt well...i will try my best to teach!*altho im oso in the process of learning..>.<"..

Oh ya!I havent introduce my dance team members to ull hor??My dance team gt 8 ppl..included me la..haha..all leng zui n leng lui..lol..
Let me intro the leng zais 1st..hehe

1. Calvin Lee Mun Hon - Our so called "sifu"..hehe..bt he reli dim la..haha



2. Cheah Zhen - Ipoh lang..lol..one of the team member,Coco's bf..kaka

3. Foo Yong Keat - Shy SHy boy..HAha..Choc provider..lol..*he loves to eat choc 2!

4. Benny Khor - A cute guy..haha..Calvin's classmate..

Now,i will intro the leng luis..hehe

1. Saki Chew - My classmate!my ji mui n my Dear!lol


2. Dominate - Oso my classmate!hehe..oso ji mui la..

3. Coco - Cheah Zhen's gf..hehe..juz knw her..she is quite nice^^

4. Angie - mYself!haha...

Tats all my team members lo..I wan to apologize 1st to all my team members cuz neva ask premission to put pic..pls 4giv me..bt leng zai leng lui muz show ppl ma..lol...hehe..reli happy tat i can have tis chance to dance together vf them..^^..thanks to Mun Hon cuz he gave us a chance to join!=P

C gt chance o nt.i will put d video of them dancing..hehe..k la..wan slip lu.....

~angie~

please dnt cry..

I reached ipoh around 5pm..i went to my mum's shop..everything seems normal..mum said want to go sing k..then we went vf her fren..We reached jbox around 8.30pm..at 1st,everything goes smoothly,bt suddenly mum ask me whether i gt call my brother or not..i ask her wat for i call him,then mum said tat i should call him n chat vf him..nt oni him,bt to my sisters too..*im d youngest..Then,my mum said that my brother reli hurt her..n...she cried...the moment my mum cry,i was so shock..i quickly comfort her by rubbing her shoulders..it works..actually i wanted to cry..bt..i cant..bcuz if i cry,my mum will cry again..i hold on my tears..then suddenly,she cry again...she said that she is very tired..she worry about me n my bro..she keep on blaming herself by saying that she didnt gv us enuf love..im reli hurt tat time..i hug my mum n told her tat she did nth wrong..this is my very 1st time seeing my mum cry till like tat..im reli reli reli sad..i cant stand looking at my mum crying n crying..then i cried..i can c that my mum is reli sad..i dont knw wat to do..i oni can pray 4 her..i reli hope tat she will nt cry anymore...i dnt wan her to cry anymore...im willing to do anything to make her smile again..actually,i gt alot thing to tell my mum..bt i dnt dare...i hope tat 1 day i will have the courage to tell her all that is frm my heart...

I wan my mum to be happy....

Mummy,i promise u,i wont dissapoint u..i wont think of pak tor 4 tis moment..i will study hard..mum,dnt worry about me n gor gor..gor gor choose his own way..its nt ur fault at all..u r d greatest mum in my heart..no one can replace u..no one...mum..please take k of ur health..i love u mummy...

Finally finish account exam...

Hooray!Finish account lu..yesterday study like hell..luckily gt melissa,saki n mun hon vf me..if nt,dnt knw how to survive..now still gt english exam in week 10..account exam..ARHHH!Srewed up...dnt knw how to do e..so sorry to those tat teach me..bt..as all my fren said to me,"u tried ur best!"so..ya..juz leave it to God..hmm..tmr go bck ipoh lo..long time no c mum dy..miz her!


just knw oni realize tat gt few ppl dnt like me..i mean d chatbox la..lol..funny la..wan comment bt dnt put name..act mistery..lol...well..it doesnt affect my life tho..so,to all my beloved frens,dnt worry ya..i wont let those unimportant ppl to affect my life..cuz they dnt have the right to judge..kaka..k la..wan rest lu...finally can rest le....






~angie~

Hooray!Glory to the Lord!=D

Yeah!Econ exam past dy lu!no need so stress on it!But well...uni life is uni life..still gt alot things to do...hmm..Oh ya!!Today i gt public speaking results dy!Altho my midterm exam nt tat gud,bt i still Praise God 4 tat!I gt 15/30..half half la..Bt guess wat i get 4 my presentation??Haha....Dnt wan tell ull...kakakakaaakkakakakakkakakakak





Alright alright..Ahem..
i got............
19/20~!!
hehe..so happy lo!Praise God tat He trained me in church..haha..cuz of the training,i dnt feel nervous during presentations!=)


Hmm..Friday gt account exam e..Angie!u can do it!




Be happy always..Miss the old you la..D happy n Friendly boy..hehe..=)





~Angie~

kampar waterfall!

My church had organised a picnic in kampar waterfall!42 ppl went n had fun together!altho v r tired,bt v had lots of fun!learn alot...Unity..tis is wat i learn!=)
No regrets 4 goin!Glad tat i went..hehe

Kena challenge by Chad to jump down!lol..at last i jump!Guess wat..when i jump,straight away cant c me..too..ahem..i admit..im..short..lol..bt im nt weak!haha..*the 1 juz splash in d water is me!hehe

So ugly..haha..kena splash water bt still wan to take pic..lol

we juz reach!haha..all leng luis....kaka

actually its a beautiful pic..bt....*u knw wat i mean...lol!

Leng zai n leng luis!lol

we reach house around 7.30pm.So tired!Actually plan to have dinner vf Saki n Nicholas..bt..slept..so i ask them dapao 4 me..10.30om went to Nic's house n study econ vf saki,nic n mun hon..DAMN!Econ!ARGGGGHHH!Dnt und at all...Getting crazy...Wednesday exam..then friday account!OMG!tis 2 subjects reli make me crazy....................

wateva la...still have to move on!ANGIE ANGIE ANGIE!U can do it!

~angie~

Finish 1 week of exam..

So exhausted!tired....Honestly,i neva study tis crazy b4..keep memorizing..im gonna faint soon..bt thank God that He send alot angels to me to support me...help me..tis week's exam past dy..computer studies,public speaking n masscom..also nt to 4get,5 min speech..lol..no energy to laugh dy..need to rest more..next week gt english language presentation..gt account exam..gt economic exam..ahhh..hope all tis faster past...





~angie~

5 minutes speech!Woohoo!=D

Finally!yesterday is my happiest day in utar!lol!I presented the 5 min speech!Dont knw y i dnt feel nervous,i over 5 min oso dnt knw e..i use 8 minutes e!then,till i end,suddenly my classmates ask me to sing a song 4 them!lol..cuz my topic it is "preparation before singing a song"Luckily b4 tat they already inform me to prepare..haha..Bt i feel soooooooo nervous tat time!yet,i still have to sing..so i use 10 min..lol...bt then Ms Chan,my tutor said tat i gt the highest mark among all my frens tat presented tat day!i was like...*stun..Bt im realy happhy cuz i knw ive given my best to God!n most of all,i dindt dissapoint those tat put hope in me!=)
Want to thanks to those hu help me in slides n give me comments!Muax!TQ!=P

Tis is d video clip tat my fren recorded..cnt rotate o..=(..so have to 'san fu' ur head 4awhile lu..Also,some part cnt reli hear wat i said..so u have to open ur ear big big lu..sorry!


~angie~

kinda dissapointed..

Today sit 4 exam..1st paper in utar..public speaking..i memorize so many things..ask 4 ppl help..and do alot of revision..bt guess wat?when i reach d hall..look at the question n then...i....4get everything...DAMN!i cant bliv tat!errrhhhh...so sad!so dissapointed!T.T..i tried so hard..bt at last..i gv d wrong answer..4 every1,its like so easy..bt me?i feel so stupid!feel so sorry to those tat help me in my studies 4 public speaking...sorry saki...sorry tommy...sorry ye fu..sorry tian xiang,frandy,david..n sorry mun hon!!oso thanks 4 helping me..i reli learn alot..altho i 4get everything during exam..(gt answer few la..)
Still gt 5 sub to go..dont knw how to survive..hope that i wont repeat the mistake anymore..
tmr 5 min speech le..hope i will score high marks...


hueva tat is christian,PRAY 4 ME!tq!




~angie~

m i wrong?

Tis afternoon,i read his blog..dnt knw y after reading wat he wrote,reli feel tat im a bad girl..i reli hurt him deeply..he put d pic v took together in abox..altho its oni the feet,bt..tat time everything goes smoothly..v r reli close frens..still remember tat 1 day he argue vf his fren..i accompany him n comfort him..i guess thats d starting point where he fall in love to me..m i wrong comforting him?i think if i neva do tat,everything wont happen..v wont feel awkward when v meet each other..m i wrong treating some1 gud??i dnt knw..m i wrong telling him tat i wan to study?m i wrong rejecting him?i dnt knw..i reli dnt knw..i feel so guilty now..exam comin soon..5 min speech oso comin soon..i hope everything will b alrite..reli blur now...




"Take time to choose
The only perfect way
The only yesterday that set you loose
Take time this way
Is this the way you'll live
Is this the way you give your love away?

I found you in the dark
You were always seeking cover from
The shadows of your heart
I found in the dark
Since the day you open up
I guess thats just the start

Cant you scream your heart out?
Cant you hear the whisper?
Cant you see that i am here?
Yes i hear you screaming,
Yes i hear your whisper,
That the truth will set me free..."



~angie~

feel so sorry..

hmm..today ive hurt one fren of mine..a reli nice,gentlemen n cute guy..he told me tat he like me n tat he was wondering whether i gt d same feeling towards him o nt..hmm..honestly..at 1st..reli gt abit la..bt i come to utar to study..nt to find a bf..tats y..i started nt to find him..im afraid tat things will go wrong n at the end it hurts both more..so..i told him tat i treated every guy d same way i treated him n tat i dnt wan to start a relationship 1st..
hmm..i reli feel sorry to give him troubles..hope tat he will happy soon..n reli hope tat v can get bck to normal..im sorry..

ps: wan to tell one more guy..hmm...jeff..i hope tat u knw v r juz fren..sorry..

Sexy dance!

Haha..today went to learn sexy dance in dance club..so fun!haha..altho i dance weirdly,bt i love d movements!haha..then suddenly mun hon ask me n saki whether v wan to join their group 4 performance or nt wor..haha..i was kinda suprise y they choose me n my fren..haha..bt v both damn happy!haha..still thinking whether wan to join o nt..sked it will affect my studies..hmm..bt i waited 4 tis kinda chance 4 so long dy..wat shud i do?
hmm..reli wan to take tis chance to tell a fren tat is nt in a mood now..erm..always remember tat do nt give up..i dnt knw wat happen to you bt u act weird nowadays..hope u will b fine soon...
k la..wan to slip now..tmr 8am gotto reach skull!!!arhh!sien..





~tomato~

appreciation..

Yeah!!Presented my 1st presentation!Altho gt some technical problem,bt still v continue on..haha..i dnt wan to say more about it 1st...next time i put d video 4 ull to c..haha..alrite..hmm..i wan to say tq 4 all hu had given me encouragement..tat helps me to move on..
1stly,my mum..cuz she is d one tat pay me to tis school..without her,i dnt think i will b in kampar..
next,i wan to thanks my team mate,david,galtom n also jezsron.they r d 1st group tat i work vf..if no them,the presentation will nt b success.THANK YOU!!
David.haha..a guy always kena bully by me..haha..very funny la..thanks to him 4 helping me carry my stuff,let me bully(release stress)haha..tQ!
Also not to forget,thanks to Frandy,that always willingly to fetch me to school n bck to my house.Imagine tat u fetch 2 ppl bck to different places!He is so gud lo..haha..He is reli a gud fren to me.(Frandy,dnt cry..haha)Not to 4get,kar yan n saki!haha..2 leng lui..reli glad to knw them..so friendly..hehe..expecially saki..thank u 4 being so open to me..sharing vf me bout ur problems..n me sharing mine to u..haha...tq..hehe..
Next is Tommy!haha..a cute guy tat loves to help..gentlement..haha..tq 4 always helping me..u reli help me alot..always 'ma fan' dou you..so sorry!
Oh ya!Tian Xiang..haha..a guy tat helps me d 1st day i went to school..haha..being my transporter till frandy come..haha..Tq!(To 'Mummy':mum,u took his place,u shud b proud.haha)
Then..mun hon..haha..altho i knew him for few days oni,bt he reli gave me alot of advice n encouragement.tq!
Then my church bro n sis!they reli take k of me so well..haha..full vf love n care..
And last bt nt least,Thank God 4 everything tat He bless me..hehe...
Oh ya!!also to all tat encourage me thru my blog..tq tq tq!!ok la..need to slip le..tmr need to disscuss bout another assignment..haha...then go gym..then dance club..woo hooo!gonna update d blog tmr..tata!






~Tomato aka Angie~

Rush!

doing masscom presentation slides!ahh..!dont knw how..Luckily gt a "some1" accompany me..hehe..thanks to the "some1" o..if nt,im stress to death!hmm..tuesday gonna present!so "gan jeong" n excited!ok,gotto get bck to my assignment!


ps:to the special 1 tat is reading tis,pls..take ur meal on the rite time n eat something tat makes u full..oh ya!tq 4 ur support to me..hehe..appreciate it..*dont so perasan la...

tired..

Juz came bck frm revision in cruz house together vf david n frandy..v study account together..but..i cant understand at all..i tried to read n read n read..bt..still d same..suddenly felt so stress..midterm comin..bt..haiz..i cant even catch up..m i rite to study at utar?i mean..m i rite to continue study?i felt sorry to my mum..wasting her money..dnt knw y..felt like crying now..i dnt wan to give up..bt..something is blocking me frm trying...im very tired..

Assignments!!

Tmr gona take video clip for masscom presentation..tuesday gonna present!me and my team gonna rock d class!haha..well..mayb some of you will think tat im kinda crazy becuz i change so fast..tis afternoon so emo bt now so excited,,haha..well..ull gona get use to it 1 day..now doin 5 min presentation 4 public speaking..altho i gt all the info about wat im gona talk about,bt..dnt knw how to start..fuhh..oh ya!todayi went 4 dance club!i join hip hop..so fun!long time no dance hiphop dy..n d bellydance..OMG!i heard my fren said tat she juz learn 3 months..she dare to teach!geng..i learn 2 years oso dont dare..paiseh.. haha..then i went to eat dinner vf my frens..tommy,saki n "biu gor"..haha..so tired....
K la..enuf 4 today..reli damn tired...still wanna prepare 4 tmr..tata

TomAtO

Please forgive me..

I found myself change..change to a person that is not so joyful like last time..i dont knw what had happen..mayb because im lost..i did not care about people around me..my friends..my family..i almost 4get who m i..i realy felt sorry to them..n also to my Father in heaven..i did not seek 4 Him 4 long time..im sorry...please dont leave me alone..

Lost..!

Arhh!its week 5 already..n im still blur!dont knw what m i doin in uni!Cant catch up with studies!im so stupid!!arhh!what shud i do??Lord..help me...